Okay guys, I'm feeling so utterly proud of myself that it's not even funny. TTwTT

I got a tablet from an amazing friend of mine, and she's been encouraging me nonstop to use it and get better at it. And now you guys have seen the results of that from my most recent two drawings. Those were both done without base sketches and I am so proud. I didn't think I'd be able to do that in such a small amount of time. <3

I want to thank my two friends who encouraged me the most:



Babies, I love you. <3

Also, my faithful watchers, if you get the chance, make your own icon. owo It feels so nice to scroll down and see something YOU made, representing YOU. <3

I love you guys~!

To my very few watchers, thanks for loving me. ouo
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Short blunt and to the point. ouo

Alright guys, I'm kind of stressed, as exemplified by the title. I'm not looking for a pity party here, I just wanted to vent. ^^" Sorry guys. :T

Long story short, I'm getting everything set up for college and I don't have any idea what I'm doing. o-o Everyone around me is getting everything done and everything together and I'm kind of drowning in the background. It's a scary thought to think that I'm not going anywhere -- especially since I really want to draw for my life career, yet I barely get any views on deviantArt yet. I know I have some supporters who like my stuff, but I feel like no one will look at original works because I started with a few SasuNaru works, and I swapped to original.

To be honest, SasuNaru is my OTP, but I want to show the world what I can do outside of that. My writing and art skills have improved, in my opinion, since I last posted here -- but everyone was paying attention to my crummy SasuNaru fanfiction and the original works get ignored. By the way, I request that you guys NEVER go read that SasuNaru fic again. xD It's so bad. I went back and couldn't even re-read it. I don't even know why everyone was pumping it up so high. Ffffuck.

Anyway, I think those of you who aren't afraid to try out original works will really enjoy my story with . It's a roleplay, so it might get a bit confusing, but I really hope you guys are too afraid to try it out, or care enough to do so.

I'm just glad I still have watchers. I never post, I never update you guys... I'm kind of an asshole -- sorry about that. ^^"

Too long? Don't want to read? (Tl;Dr):

-I'm really scared for college. :T

-Check out the zombie apocalypse yaoi story with Vlad!; Chapter one:
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-I try so hard guys.
I LOVE YOU.

Alright Chapters one and two of Toxic Truth are up. ouo

-gigantic yawn- I'm really tired.

I'm supposed to be drawing my favorite food today, though, for that drawing challenge thingy. I'm have doing it with me, but that asshole is too busy doing other things to support me in my endeavors. What a dick. e-e

Oh well. If you guys want to play along there's a picture that goes with it and I'll maybe post it later. e0e

Probably not though. If I get any/enough requests to play, then I'll post a journal entry with the items, but knowing you guys, you'll read this, scoff, and delete it. xD

Thanks for the support guys.

I am getting back on track now. My internet is just too slow sometimes to post anything. Today it's fast enough because Carl (the little brother) isn't here sucking up all the service.

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Okay, so me and my friend started an RP/Story called Toxic Truth. It's using my characters Shujin Matsuda and Kain Astair (which none of you have been introduced to yet), and we're going to start uploading it soon. You guys should check it out because we've been working really hard on it. I'll probably be posting the first chapter in the next few hours, at most, that is, if my internet cooperates long enough.

In other news, my mother just mentioned getting a scanner. Maybe my art won't look so shitty on this site now. e_e'

It's a struggle.

I'm sorry about never being here, never updating, etc etc... But my internet hates me. When college starts up in the fall, I'll be sure to update more. So thank you guys that have been sticking with me thus far, and I hope that you guys will stay by me in the future. c:

I love you guys!